Trust and Creativity

I am playing a bit of catch up as I am beginning to process of creating my Wish Alchemy book and preparing it and myself for a time of contemplation each month. September and October were already in process so I wrote some thoughts about each theme, It was really great to take the time to think about these themes. It also helped me come up with some things to do to process through the topics, having some goals in each area.

The first theme was Trust (which is shown in the top picture) and creating a sacred space. My thoughts:

"Create the space within yourself that is sacred. When physical space is limited, you go within, finding that space that provides the opportunity to help you expand instead of shrink. Pay attention to those elements that push you into that sacred space. Breathe it in and live there for a while. It is there that you will see yourself as you are. Beautiful, whole, accepted and valued."

The next theme was Create and opening doorways. My thoughts:

"Through words, visuals, music, whatever....wherever the spirit within takes you. Ride the wave,let it take you places where your creativity flows and you can be one with that spirit within and what you will bring forth will be a beautiful representation of glorious you."

Through this exercise I am discovering the need to spend more time each day creating that sacred space. Thankfully, at the moment, I am staying at a cabin by the river, so finding the space to contemplate and spend time expanding comes easily for me in this surrounding. But very soon, I will need to create that space in other places as we are traveling on.

I am also discovering the need to have space in each day to create. Anything. I am challenging myself to create SOMETHING every day.

On a side note, this is very much an 'in the raw' process. I am not trying to perfect my writing or any art that is created, so basically, what you see and read is how it is birthed and will not be changed or attempted to be made better. I want to be as authentic as I possibly can and will present it here 'as is'.

Thank you for reading.

xoxo

Wish Alchemy

Photo credit to Mindy Tsonas

Creative thought seems to be pervasive in my life. I may not always get to act out those creative thoughts, but that doesn't mean that they are there any less. I try to find ways to add creativity in my life, whether it is through motherhood, through partnership with others, through my work...it is there.

There are times when I need to dive a bit more into the juiciness of what creativity can bring forth because I feel it only serves the people that are closest to me well, if I pay attention and move forward in creativity when it is speaking loudly into my soul.

So this is where I am currently living, diving deep into those wishes of creativity. And as my beautiful friend, Mindy Tsonas, is creating a space for others, like myself, that want to invite the wishes in,the desires that speak so loudly that they demand to be seen and heard and lived, I am joining her in this vision.

I will periodically be posting here some creations of wishes and desires that come forth for me. It will act as a journal of sorts for taking part in this journey with Mindy.

I am always excited to be able to allow my spirit to bring forth my inner creations and offer them as a visual representation of what my soul knows to be true. 

Thanks for joining me on this journey of discovery, wherever it may lead.

xoxo

Acceptance

Another full moon tonight. I am really loving the moments I can connect with this phase of the moon. It is a time of reflecting that seems to speak differently each time. I love that aspect of reflecting. I can be open to receiving the message in the moon. Listening and watching to see what unfolds before me.

I didn't feel a sense of intention this time. It was more of a message of acceptance. Acceptance of the people in my life, acceptance of myself and allowing life to unfold as it will. Being completely present in this moment allows me to receive an abundance of wisdom to guide me into the next place of being.

The moon was shining bright and reminded me that at the core of who I am, there is also a light within shining brightly. As the clouds passed by the light of the moon, there was a variant of colors that appeared, reflections of all that could be seen visually, correlating the varying degrees of who we are that can be seen, but can cloud our view of the true and authentic nature of that bright and shining light.

Choosing to allow that part of you to be seen, whether judged or not, is the ultimate act of bravery. Can we look at our own selves truly and be content in what we see? To be confident to be seen through my own eyes is quite enough for me. All others that choose to see what I see, that will just be an added bonus. They will complement my life, not be essential for my existence.

Acceptance. Love. Light. When these things are present, the the natural flow of life is allowed to emerge. I feel safest in that place of organically flowing with life. I can trust this flow. When I am present there, life always shows up. I can't think of a better place to be.

Being Interconnected

Photo Credit: Jessica Chilton

A friend wrote a piece on her facebook wall that really has been speaking to me in a variety of ways. I have been really struggling with the idea of disconnect, especially when it comes to interpersonal connections. This also can apply to the climate in which we live and take part and the dialog that is taking place, both with each other and also within ourselves.

The piece that she wrote was in regard to all that is happening in this world that causes you to want to curl up and hide away and proclaim, "just let me know when it is safe to come out again! I'll be here in my soft place comforting and protecting my heart'. To separate yourself from hard things. This is the temptation.

But what really spoke to me about what my friend said was an intentional choice to lean in. Lean in to the hate, the anger, the pain and say, "we are in this together". How this statement just went straight to the core of my being.  This sense of being interconnected. There is really no escaping it, this connection we have as beautiful givers of light and life. We are connected as human beings.

Choosing life and love and connection and knowing without a doubt that I am connected to humanity. To life.

We are all connected, whether we choose to embrace this or not, we are all in this together.

May my life and your life be filled with those people that choose to embrace this reality.

And may love guide you into all things beautiful and to those people that make you feel alive.

Intention

The moon was quite full and enticing this time around. 

I felt it pulling me closer to it's brilliance. The light shining in the darkness and allowing me to see things so clearly. Literally and figuratively.

Clarity is such an amazing thing and the process that happens in that awareness of clarity is something that leaves me in constant awe. I think that I am coming to a place of knowing and when I must learn more, life teaches me more.

I accept this. Embrace it even. Hard as it is and as cracked open as I feel, I embrace it still.

I wanted to set an intention for this cycle of the moon. I felt particularly drawn to this and knew that it was important.  Now that I have really focused my attention on what I would like to intend, I understand why. I understand the value of this pondering.

My attention has brought me to this realization. I want to dig deep and rediscover my courage.

Courage to say no to people whose intentions are not good for me. Courage to say yes to those that embrace me for who I am and still want more. Courage to allow myself to experience life and the things and people that bring me joy. Courage to embrace others without barriers. Courage to embrace myself just as I am. 

Courage to see and to be seen.

Courage.

How many times have I rejected this experience of courage? How many times have I thought that I was being courageous, when really I was just doing the things that have been expected of me?

I will say that the past nine months have driven me to seek something within myself that would bring forth the joy, the love and the openness in my heart and mind that was there, just beneath the surface. This is all good. But there is more to uncover. More to me than I have ever shown.

I am scared to show myself. I will admit this. Showing myself is being vulnerable to rejection. Will I see things that even shock ME? Maybe. But I have this feeling that there is something there, something good, something worth seeing.

I am worth seeing.

Broken Open

Pure Love, Csaba Markus

How does it feel to be completely broken open? Everything exposed and vulnerable?
Do those open wounds hurt? Are they ever going to heal?

One day I am thinking that I am living in my nice secure life and then it all changes in a moment, with a question. There is no turning back now. There is no going back to what once was a reality for me. It was not reality though...it was a dream. A dream that I played a part in, but so did everyone else. Everyone played a part of supporting that dream, allowing it to continue.
How could I be so wrong?

I can't go back. No.

So, the questions remain...how will I live in my truth? How will I move forward? What is my truth? Where do I start and how do I get there? I want to walk this journey so badly I can taste it, smell it and feel it so intensely.

What does it mean to be me? I am love and sensuality and I crave pure raw honesty. Anything less seems to fall short and leaves me lacking joy. I want to experience life, to be thrown into it with the most intense of forces imaginable.

I am visualizing myself surrounded by love, by sensuality and by pure raw honesty. This is me broken open. Completely vulnerable and completely open to the amount of love that will flow.
There may be pain, but this time, no dream. This time I am the most real I can possibly be.

And it really doesn't matter if those around me are loving and sensual and pure, raw, honest. That is MY choice. My choice is so clear to me. So clear.

Broken open. Real. Raw. The healing comes when acceptance flows from me and to me. I am there.

Sacred Sensuality

So, I will jump right into a topic that can introduce so much vulnerability, which is an interesting first post to write, but nevertheless, I am jumping in!

This post is actually written as a response to another blog entry that I read the other day from Mindy Tsonas, in her post called Wanton Spiritual Desire. The idea that really spoke to me through Mindy's words was the concept of creating from love and desire. Maybe the next question would be, 'What exactly are you creating?' and 'How does love and desire help you create anything?'

What exactly am I creating? Anything that the love and desire inspires me to create. It could be something I make with my hands, something that is written, a new exciting relationship unfolding, delicious food or even a photo collage of all the beauty that is experienced in one day. The possibilities are limitless. Creating from a place of passion, love and desire can produce the most amazing and spectacular results. It is pure magic presented to your senses in however it unfolds in that moment.

Tapping into the love and desire to assist in creating something magical...how is that accomplished? This is something that I am continuing to ponder in this moment. I was having a discussion with a friend recently about how to set the tone for that creativity to flow. My questions were along the lines of 'what elements need to be present for you to experience a deep and moving, spiritual connection with someone'. I think it really is different for everyone, what moves you to be inspired creatively in your sacred sensuality. For me, there are so many things that can push me toward that sacred space. It is hard to know which element to focus completely on and maybe it is best to just allow it to flow into being.

I decided to look toward my alchemy cards for a bit of inspiration. Asking the same question of myself as I embraced the cards and listening to what they wanted to speak to me.

I chose the card "Fierce".

What does FIERCE mean to me? I feel like I need to type that word in all caps because the word is so bold! Fierce is something that you are when you know that there are obstacles and possible negative scenarios, but you move forward anyway. You step into your truth with the confidence and inspiration behind you to go after that desire, fully and completely present in the moment.

I think it is amazing that I chose this card. This is exactly how I feel in this moment. Exactly. I feel like I am stepping into my truth boldly, going after the desires that fuel my motivation to love untamed. This desire touches the essence of who I am and those that are open to it will experience the love I have within me on the deepest of levels.

FIERCE.

So, I ask you...

What moves you to embrace your sacred sensuality?

Introduction

photo: Siren by Dmitry Laudin

I started this blog as a place to share some thoughts about various topics and tap into some creative expression of my thoughts and soul stirrings.

I thought I might share a bit about how the blog came to be named Magical Vellamo.

Magical is a word that is very special to me as it comes up in various ways throughout each and every day. When I think about the word, what comes to mind is that moment that just takes your breath away. You are dazzled and you are mesmerized and you cannot look away. You are witnessing a moment that seems to be orchestrated just for you to experience and enjoy immensely.

Vellamo is a Finnish water goddess. She represents the ability to experience the aliveness that comes with being one with the water. Water is extremely important to me as it motivates and inspires me while also offering the greatest sense of peace I could possibly achieve in any other setting.Water is also life giving and flowing freely, moving at a pace that is only determined by the other elements that it is living within connection.

As these two concepts come together in this blog, they provide the inspiration I need to walk through this journey of life. They mesh so well together and produce a sense of unity on the path ahead.

As I continually ask questions that come up for me and seek the best answers I can, these will be elements that will push me but also provide the ability to stir my soul and to offer peace in the asking.